I can't be mad at him without feeling INSANELY guilty about it. Seriously. Every time I get mad and then consequently blow up, I instantaneously feel guilty about it...like "what happens if something bad happens and all we did was fuss the last few months he was home", what if "and all I did was criticize his handling of the kids, what if "and all I did was make him feel like he couldn't do anything right". Ugh ugh ugh....deployments suck.
